thats it. she claims tt she is attached. so i will give her my blessing. i will not bother her anymore. i will try to forget her if i can. but if i cant, den i can only look at her past photos she sent to me. although she treat me tis way, but i nv regret going into relationship with her. coz she is the only one who can change me. i listened to her more den i listen to my parents. i changed myself totally just because of her. plz forgive me for being irritating. i dont mean it. she makes a perfect partner to me. that is why i have always wanted a patch with her. but nw there is no more chance. i msg her not really just wish to patch, but i really care for her. its ok if she dont appreciate. i dont expect to have a gd news when i sent her a msg. maybe i noe her too well that makes me tink tis way.

i will not update my blog that often anymore as there is nothing else i can update.
i cant simply juz type that i am depressed, sad, heartbroken everyday. so i will choose not to update so often. hope that the guy she found is really gd to her n cared for her. coz i dun tink that i am a good stead and nv cared for her. if not, she will not have leave me just like that. i will just end here. i miss her n really loved her.




1/5 sad, 2/5 depressed, 3/5 heartbroken, 4/5 died.

i miss her. its been 2mths 26 days since we brk. i really nid u alot. plz come back to mi. u r still the one tt i loved. a day without u is juz like a day without sunshine. my life is so empty and miserable without u with me. where were u when i needed u? plz come back to my side. maybe i m treat her nt tt well. nv cared 4 her when we were together. haix.

finally we escaped from the stupid camp. gt so many rules. we cant order pizza when we were hungry. we have to sneak out to changi village for supper. my uncle told me tt i could watch world cup there. but in the end, he dun allow me to watch. i m being cheated. going for the camp is my 2nd biggest regret in my life. we have to slp at 11pm. we cant do our own tings. no freedom. we have to follow their plan. wth is this man. in the camp i was missing her so much. so i escaped and went home. lol. i m still waiting for u. i miss you.

i will be missing her alot. will nt be at home for the next few days. being forced to go to camp. my cough has nt recover yet, wonder when will it recover. how will i be able to get another chance from her? my love for her is beyond description. hope to see her on the street one day. den i will be glad. as long as she feels happy, den i m happy. hope tt she will come back to me.

from the day i give u the ring( at the traffic light opp plaza sing) i never tot of ending the relationship with u. from the day i say tt i love u, i mean it. i promised to be by your side no matter what happen, but its a matter of whether you wan me to be by your side.

when u left me, i told u tt i would wait. so i am still waiting for u. i did nt contact u does nt mean tt i dun miss u. its tt i do nt wan to irritate u. i miss you.

tournament had been played. we did nt qualify. but we put in our best effort. all the players played well. no one is to be blamed. although we lost, but we learnt from our mistake and gained experience. for my overall performance, i am quite satisfied with myself. i really hope tt she was there watching me play. i miss her alot.

today is the day. i will be having a match later at yishun ard 10am. so excited. dunno if we can make it to the finals. my cough is nt fully recovered. so i might be on the bench. my orange jersey and my num 9. i haf to perform well when i m playing. how i wish tt she is still by my side, then she could see me play. but tis is juz what i tink. she might nt tink tis way. i miss her. if i m able to see her outside, i m really happy. i dun expect her to talk or smile to me when she sees me. i really want to look at her. I MISS HER!

have been coughing badly tis few days. dunno wat happen to me.
get breathless at times. den tis sat gt tournament. dunno if i can make it.
coughing will make my stamina get worst.
haix sick liao.

argh! nw i cant look at her profile anymore. she did this on purpose? haix. the last and only way for me to see her is to look at her profile. but nw i cant even look at it. i really miss her alot. when am i able to see her again? what can i do to gain her forgiveness?

i am still waiting here. not yet given up hope.

watch the world cup opening match just now. both matches were quite interesting. but while i am watching, it reminds me of her. she promised to watch at least a soccer match with me, but now she left me. we don't have the chance to watch a match together at all.
why does everything that i do reminds me of her? it is really hard for me to forget her just like that.

she promised to watch a soccer match with me. but in the end she left me.
i promised to bring her to the esplande to enjoy the breeze and watch the stars. but i am nt able to do it nw.
why does all this tings have to happen in my life?
what makes her have the sudden thought that we are nt suitable.
missing her now and then. how i wish that i could see her.

omg. i am listening to the radio right now. the DJ was mentioning abt hw sensitive a girl would be. i should nt tell her that she is plump and tease her with it. i did nt tink if her feelings. she might be upset but she did nt say it out. i regretted saying it to her. i should care for her feelings so that she will nt get upset. wat excactly am i doing. done so many foolish things when we are together. i am really sorry for teasing u and nt cared for ur feelings. but i noe tt its too late for me to say all tis nw.

betting- quit. coz i promised her that i will quit.
studies- hope to get into the same poly as her.
wish- to have her back.
mistake- no topic to talk on phone.
regret- nv treasure the chance she gave.
miss- the happy times together.

conclusion-i love her and miss her alot.

i went to malaysia today. wake up early in the morning and went there on the coach bus. the main purpose is to look at the fire-flies during the nite.
when i lift up my head, i can see many stars filling the sky.
upon looking at them, i suddenly tot of her. remember the time when we were watching the stars together happily. but nw i cant even watch it with her.
how i wish i could have a chance to watch it with her again.
i have nt seen her for a very long time. i dunno when can i meet her again.
let fate decide? i cannot and dun wanna contact her as she will feel tt i m irritating.
i hope tt she will contact me one day. nt to expect much. juz to sms me as a normal friend.
den i am satisfied. i miss her very much. how i wish tt i could see her nw.

Name: Jeremy
Birthday: 20Jan89
Age: 17



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