ITSOVER
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
she might nt noe hw important she is to me.
is nt that i cant overcome a small setback.
my love for her is so deep and its beyond description.
i juz cant put it down easily.
i expect the relationship to last. but it didn't.
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12:32 AM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
i promised to study hard juz for her sake.
i promise her that i would quit betting, and i have done it.
i will change myself into a totally different person of wat i am last time.
i will turn into a better person.
i will get her back one day with the new jeremy and not the old one.
i will let her forget the old me and know the new me.
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11:38 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
why can the other couples be so loving but not mine?
why can the others relationships last and not mine?
am i really such a failure?
i juz wanted a simple and lasting relationship with her. is this wrong?
maybe i am juz foolish and naive.
she might not come back to me anymore. all this are juz my wishful thinkings.
all that i have given to her are the best that i can do.
the worst thing that i have done is not having much things to talk to her.
how then i can have a lasting relationship?
how will i be able to learn to find more topics?
i juz want her back. only her and not others.
what i should do, i have done.
the last and only thing that i can do is to miss her each day and hope that fate will allow me to see her.
if we are fated to be together, we will be. juz let fate do the job.
i love her. never to be replaced.
forget her? not for the time being.
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11:22 PM
she really wanna forced me to give up. once again i am being known as irritating by her. i will juz let her go la. haix. i will nt disturb her anymore. tis is wat she wanted. maybe i will wait for her, or maybe nt. i am nt sure too. she is truly the one tt i loved. i did nt grbbed my chance and therefore the chance slip through my fingers. if she found her own happiness, i will give her my blessings. she will be taking her "O" chi tis mon. wish her gd luck.
if u happened to change ur mind, i will still be waiting.
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1:16 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
i have been messaging her tis few days. the least tt i can do nw is to send her a gd nite msg every nite. i hope tt she will nt feel tt i m irritating or pestering her. i will still give her my blessings coz i really duno wat else i can do. i will still be waiting here. i m nw a totally changed person.
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11:12 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
heart smashed. she deleted the testi. the feelin of her stabbing me is the same feeling of stabbing myself. haix. i really cant do anything already. maybe what she had said are truth. she gt no more feelings for me. i have nt given up totally. but i haf lost my confidence in getting her back. i will try nt to bother her anymore. my feelings for her will nt change. neither will my heart change.
i will continue to update my blog for her to read. hope tt she will read it. lyk wat i sae, if u happen to change ur mind, i will still be here waiting. i dunno why the letter n delication makes u hate mi instead of u being touched. but i m sry for what i haf done.
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10:04 AM
Friday, May 19, 2006
strictly for liting(my recent ex) only.
there is nth tt i can do nw. i tried many ways to make you feel happy, but intstead you are irritated by mi. all tt i hope to haf nw is another chance frm you. i juz want us to start over over again. dun tink abt the past. start everything afresh. but you are either stubborn or really tat determined not to give mi the last chance.
i haf gone into relationships b4. but you are the only girl tt make mi noe wat a serious relationship is like and you are the only girl tt i haf loved wholeheartedly. you are oso the 1st girl whom i cried for.
you wanted me to delete the testimonial tt u haf written for mi. by deleting the testi myself is juz lyk stabbing myself right into the heart. i would rather let you stab me but nt stabbing myself. do you get wat i mean?
i dunno hw much time will i take to forget you. as long as the day haf nt come, den i will be still waiting. i really hope to haf another chance for us to start all over again. but since you insist, den i can do nth but give you my blessing. if u happen to change your mind, i will still be here waiting.
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12:42 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i pass her the letter ytd. i wanted her to feel touched, but instead she is irritated by me. she told mi to stop doing all tis tings as she will be hating mi more. but did she ever tink of the reason for mi doing all tis tings? the purpose for mi doing tis is to touched her n wanted her to come back to me. am i wrong by sending her love letter, delicate song for her? and even update my blog juz to let her noe hw i feel. she wont understand. she implied tt there is no more feeling for mi. i juz wanted one more chance to be with her. juz like when we r together last time. wat can i do so tt i could change her heart without irritating her? plz tell mi!! i dunno if i haf turned into a gd or bad guy.
aft reading the msg tt she sent mi ytd, my fren and i went drinking at the carpark near her hse. almost finish half a pack of cig. luckily my fren stopped mi. i dun wan to smoke or drink. but tis are the only ways tt can make mi nt tink of her. half drunk ytd, den my fren sent mi home. only my frenz noe hw i feel. but she dunno at all. if she put herself in my shoes, den she will noe hw badly i m feeling nw. i really did something tt irritating tt make her hate mi so much?
i m a failure la. i cant managed relationship well. tats y she leave mi. i m nt gd enuff for her. or rather she haf no feeling for mi right frm the start. she is juz toying my feelings. she told mi tt she reali lov mi. is she saying juz for the sake of saying or crap? if i can forget her easily, n she can be replaced. den tt is nt called a serious relationship. a person cannot be replaced when there is true love. i juz want her. she cannot be replaced. since she insist. den i shall nt forced her. juz let mi lov her without irritating her. but i really hope tt she will come back. i juz nid 1 last chance frm her. tats all. jeremy is dead frm den on.
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